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Monday, February 16, 2004
at times, it makes me wonder wat the the secret to a healthy long term relationship...sheesh...at times i envy my frenz who's been havin a secure relationship with their other halves...for me, i'd always haf difficulty hangin on to my relationship...always ended up meetin the wrong guys...its either me endin it cos of commitment phobia or the guy decides that he's better off without me...it sucks right...but at times, i feel that having failed relationships haf taught me alot...taught me to become a stronger person & how to heal a broken heart but there are disadvantages...for example, always makes me into pessimist at times...and that sure sucks....but its never stopped me into jumpin into relationships...hahaha...i like takin a risk...there used to be a period of time when my frens are always sayin that i like bad boys...tat's kinda true...its always exciting to reform a bad boy but damn the heart break that i'd haf to go thru...hahaha
but currently, my current main squeeze is such a sweetie...he's a great guy & i'm reali thankful to haf him by my side...he's been sooo good to me though at times he can be the laziest boyfren alive....hahaha...not lazy la...juz tired i guess after he books out from camp & i can be a bitch at times, not asking if he's tired anot, i'd juz bug him to go out with me...most of the time, he'll be a darling and go ahead with me but at times, he'd be sooo tired that i'd be a darlin in return & i'd let him rest at home...but at times, i can be such a horrible gerlfren...i can juz lose my temper at him for no reason & he'd be the most understanding boyfren tat he won't even scold me or anything...in fact, he'll try to pacify my temper and it makes me feel sooooo damn guilty.....but if i were to go overboard, he'll sure give me a piece of his mind...at times i wonder why the hell am i doin damage to my wonderful relationship...but i guess at times, i let my emotions get the best of me....its sucks when that happen cos at the back of my mind, i'm always afraid that one fine day, he'll tolerate no more of my shit & i'll lose him...i'm sooo scared that will happen cos he's the best thing that's ever happened to me & i love him dearly...i guess i need to try hard enuff top be a better gerlfren...not that i haven't been a good gerlfren but i guess i juz need to do sumthin bout my occasional tempers...hehehe...guess i need to try harder to curb this temper of mine & guess i haf to thank GOD for letting me fall in love with my dearest sweetie...
THIS TRIBUTE GOES TO MY DEAREST ADAM FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT GUY...I LOVE U SWEETHEART AND THANX FOR MAKIN ME FEEL SPECIAL WITH YOUR LOVE!!!
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:13 p.m.
Saturday, February 14, 2004
hey...watcha doin...i'm slackin at home right now...feelin lethargic & not in one of my best moods...mayb not gettin enuff sleep for the past one week wasn't a very good idea after all...sheesh...or maybe its cos i'm missin my sweetie...watever it is, it sure sucks BIG time...hmm, wat else ar...of ya...by the way, i'm now officially employed at SP services...that gives me & suzi the oppurtunity to be able to werk at the same place...diff department though...my interview on friday was successful & waitin for my working package to be finalised...that's like gonna happen in 1 weeks time...guess i'm juz takin the time now to enjoy wats left of my slackin days...this may sound crazy but i'm lookin forward to working...hahaha...maybe boredom is gettin to me i guess...sheesh...
had a great time on friday walkin ard town with suzi..i was practically killin her wit my nonsensical antics...hahaha...thanx suzi for waitin for accompanying me for my interview...we juz walked ard in town..ten decide to eat at far east's puncak...damn...it was good...damn tasty i must say...ten after town, went to meet my cousin in jurong east...accompany him to eat then followed him home to see wats wrong wit his pc...its juz need some good old re-bootin i guess...hehehe....
ten i followed my cousin to his therapy appt at tanglin shoppin mall...thank GOD it didn't take that long...ten headed off to far east sakura's for lunch...his treat...guess its a way of sayin thanx...hahaha...bumped into jaz & aida at sakura...hope they haf a nice date...was kinda wonderin if i'd meet my sweetie today...no plans made actually...but then, i guess i'll haf to meet him some other time cos there's no one home to stay with his mom...sheesh...kinda feelin sucky cos i didn't get to meet him...but...wat the hell...its sure as hell ain't gonna make me love him any less...juz abit upset thats all...i've learnt to understand that his mom is his top priority...i don't haf a problem wit that...juz at times the feelin of disappointment comes about thats all...sheesh...but i still love u sweetie as much as ever...haf a feelin that things are gonna be better after his p.o.p.....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 08:57 p.m.
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
hey...wassup...i'm like sooo bored...already done with the household chores & there's like nothing good to watch on tv though i had cable...sheesh...so, here i am...back online...lookin for my other bored bejeweled partner...hahaha...since both of us are like practically a full time slacker...nothin better to do since we're both done with cleaning up...so bored!!! better start werk soon or else i'm gonna go crazy due to boredom..hahaha...don't u tink so suzi...gonna go for another interview at sp services on friday..wonder if suzi would be bored enuff to accompany me there...hehehe...
had a great time hangin out wit suzi yesterday...its was none stop talkin "cock" sia...was great..wished that the others could join us..esp sida...it would haf been better but since everybody else is busy with werk...we'll juz to make do wit wat we haf..ain't that right suzi...but we had fun none-the-less...practically talked bout everything...shud do more of this kinda therepy so tat i won't go bonkers soon...hehehe...naturally, bein the provider, i'd always haf more of the good stuff...ended up feelin sick by the time i reach home & the stupid "jerky" bus ride didn't help either...gosh...that sucked...followed suzi to popular bookshop before headin home...tot of buyin adam a card for valentine's day...but decided against doin it cos dok tink we'll be celebrating it...anyways...budgets kinda tight right bout now...so, i'd better make use of the money for my daily expenses...been quite some time since i last asked my parents for pocket money...am proud to say that i've been surviving on wats left of my ers & my last pay cheque...sheesh...
me & adam are goin on fine...things are ok after the screw up on sat...glad to say that things are back to normal...he asked me if i mind if we don't celebrate v-day...i said that i'm ok with that...we dok even celebrate our anniversary in a big way...so, wat is valentine's day...hehe...anyways, he said that he might juz be stayin at home on v-day cos his mom might be alone at home...so, he wants to accompany her...i'm cool with that cos i understand that his mom is goin thru sorta a rough patch...i used to tell myself that i want a guy who places his family as top priority cos ten he'll understand if i prioritise my family...and hey..presto..i got juz that...lookin at the way he loves his family reali makes me feel sooo touched & i feel tat i'm lucky to haf him love me cos he's a reali great person to be wit...yeah sure he has his faults & yeah...at times he pisses me off...but apart all that he's reali a sweet guy...damn tolerant & his love makes me feel special...sheesh...am gettin damn mushy here...better stop here before anyone pukes...hahaha...love is in the air ppl....hahaha...i love u sweetie...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 02:59 p.m.
Monday, February 9, 2004
hey...today was fun...ok..i'm still kinda fucked up...but i'm feelin relieved alreadi...thanx suzi for playin bejeweled wit me...easin my boredom & listenin to my neverendin whining...hahha...shared our thoughts & views...bout life, parents & work..darn...my interview's being re-scheduled to sumwhere ard this week cos timings bad...gosh..didn't knoe it cud be soo hard to werk wit suzi...hahaha...she's hot stuff i guess...sheesh...
i'd like to say i'm sorry to my sayang...cos of my fucked up behaviour on sat...it won't be repeated...i promise...i love u sayang....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 04:47 p.m.
Friday, February 6, 2004
hey...its been quite sumtime since i last updated...life's been pretty much the same...hmm..guess the question is..am i employed or am i not...darn!!! its soo bloody confusing...first she said i got the job..then she said, i haf to go for another round of iterview cos the end user of the department wants to see me...gosh!!! juz keepin my fingers crossed i guess....INSYALLAH, i'll get the job..i'm like soooo bored areadi...hehe....got to watch divine secrets of the yaya sisterhood yesterday...cant help but to reflect on my friendship wit my bestest pals...it was reali great seeing the way these "sisters" maintained their frenship from they were little kids till they grew old...just hope that my frenship wit my bestest pals would be like that...i'm sure its gonna be damn great....
things haf been great between me & adam...morrow's gonna be our anniversary...not gonna go and celebrate it in any lavish & extravagant ways...hehehe...juz gonna go meet him after he books out & then head off to his place to hang out...not one of the best ways to celebrate our anniversary...but hey..wat the heck..at least can get to meet him after 2 weeks of not meetin him...sheesh...goin to his pace seems like the best alternative since he's gotta do sentry on sunday...juz hope that valentine's day is gonna be fine..hehe...i love u sweetie...u've been a great boyfren...thanx for bein understanding & tolerant...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 08:28 p.m.
Sunday, January 4, 2004
hmm...the first day of bein 22 yrs old...ouchh!!! hahaha....or issit the 2nd day...i dok knoe...hee...had sorta a gatherin for my close frenz yesterday...turned out ok i guess...havin the closest family, frenz & delicious food ard me yesterday was one of the best bdays i had...i'd like to say thanx to all for their presence & prezzies...i'm juz sorry if i didn't get to hang out properly wit u guys...hee...to my dearest sayang...thanx for the surprises & watch...juz sori that i wasn't the one to receive the flowers & bear at the door cos i was out wit u...hehe...i love the watch..its gorgeous...i love u sayang....
didn't do much for new year's eve...juz went to watch "school of rock" with my sayang and we wished each other new year by the road...hehe...hanged out abit under the void deck & we hanged out at my hse...was great though...i love u sayang...may all our dreams come true & be an even better other half for each other....hee...
happy new year for all...may the year be a great one for all...may i find a job soon...may i'll always be happy in life....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 02:52 p.m.
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
hey..i finally got my transcript!!! hahaha...like..finally..hehehe...hmm...juz got back from kl on sunday...was ok la...didn't haf as much fun like the previous trip...mayb sumthin was missin...hee...me & my sayang missed each other loads...he said tat i tortured him cos he couldn't sleep cos he didn't get to hear my voice...though i called him twice areadi on friday itself..hee...gosh..aren't we attached to one another...i didn't do much durin this kl trip...didn't even go to hard rock..didn't do much shoppin aso...juz walked ard the huge shoppin malls ten bought a few stuffs...bought a top, bracelet, anklet & sumthin else...
went to catch Lord of The Ring on x'mas eve with my sayang...movie was SUPERB!!!! especially the fight scenes...it was damn good sia...gosh...i really had fun...before goin for the movie, did a couple of stuffs...met up wit suzi in the morn to go to the agency..ten we juz hanged ard..had brunch together...talked bout the PRECIOUS good old times...was superb sia...i miss those days...names like, sliders, bond, ace, brad, jan2, mentally retarded, dutch etc...reali holds fond memories...kudos to these names who made our secondary sch life more interesting...don't u agree on that..haha....ten after meetin suzi, met my sayang after he book out to go to his hse since his momma said i haven't go to their hse for hari raya...hee...nice timing ar..last day of syawal...hehe..wa okla..made small talks wit his mom & aunt...ten talked to his cousin before we headed off for our so called date...hee...i love u sayang...!!!
^commfreak^ spit on u at 12:51 a.m.
Saturday, December 20, 2003
hey...am at home rite now...feelin kinda lethargic...mayb gettin caught in the rain wasn't a good move...hehe...after bein caught in the rain, walked in the rain wit my mum...ten after hrs of gettin wet, finally got to bathe when i reach home...today was kinda eventful for me...today was my first outing wit sayang's family...it went ok for me...juz that i was bein shy & quiet most of the time...maklum la...first time kluar wit his family...its not juz his mom & sista...his aunts, cousins, niece & nephew was also there...hope that his family would be ok wit me...hehe...though we didn't do anythin today except juz sittin ard at the pool, but i areadi had a good time sittin wit him...spendin time wit him is areadi good enuff for me...actually we're supposed to go elsewhere after goin to the pool but since we spent the whole noon there & i had to join my parents to go to my aunt's hse, we decided to cancel it anyway, he looks drained enuff...so, dok wanna torture him...hehehe...will torture him another day...next time i'm gonna meet him will be on new year's eve coz i'll be goin to kl next weekend...yipee...i'm gonna haf fun though i'm gonna miss my sayang....hee...i love u yang...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:42 p.m.
Tuesday, December 9, 2003
hey...i'm back...juz finished uploadin pics for the latest raya...photos for the outing wit my gerlfrenz are still not ready for viewin coz still waitin for sida to develop the film...hmm...take a look ppl...hmm...let's talk bout the hari raya outings...hmm, fridays outin was fun...had loads of fun goin out wit my gerlfrenz...its been quite sometime since i last met all of them...managed to do sum catchin up...had a great time gerls..can't wait to see the pics...
didn't get to go to idah's hse cos had to meet adam to go to elfi's hse...after elfi's hse, took a cab to ain's hse...met wawan there...ten adam sent me hm...took a cab back hm...adam sent me up & went to my hse alone...hehehe....was kinda kancheong cos wak lijah's family was ard..but everythn went smoothly i guess...my family are ok wit him..hehehe...i'm sooo relieved....
sunday's outin would haf been great if endy wasn't ard...he sucked big time...gosh...bth him & his gerlfren are such asshole!!! hmm, back to the outing...its a coincidence tat the outing was held on our anniversary...i had a great time spendin time wit him...took pics of us & the whole grp...gosh..i miss him areadi....
in case i'm not bloggin morrow...i'd like to wish my darlin gerlfren SIDA....A HAPPY 21ST BDAY ON 10THE DEC....may u haf a great bday gerl & may the year ahead be a great one for u....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:12 p.m.
Friday, December 5, 2003
its been weeks since i last updated my page...been reali busy wit my family outings...maklumla hari raya..hehehe...am goin out wit the gerls later today...will be meetin up at my hse in the afternoon...guess its gonna be great...gonna do loads of cathcin up cos its been ages since we last met up...all four of us actually....can't wait...
met up wit my sayang on weds...after not meetin him for a few weeks...went to his place to teach him to do the laundry...since his momma is away in kl...then ate dinner together...watch tv..slacked ard till it was time for him to get ready to back to camp...was kinda great cos we got to spend time together...been quite some time since we juz hanged out together....i miss havin all the time in world to meet him like last time...hehe...am meetin him again on sunday for another hari raya outing...can't wait...hehehe....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 02:21 a.m.
Sunday, November 9, 2003
hey ppl...i'm now officially a slacker!!!! yippee!!! sch's finally over!!! yesla....hahaha...after waitin for sooo long for this day to come, finally it came...my mom's away in hong kong for my granny's funeral...will only be back on weds....so, tat means, i'm in charge of the households thingy....arghh...wat a way to start my days as a slacker...sent my mama to the airport juz now ten went to break fast at teban...ten went to geylang with my aunts, cousins....didn't walk ard...juz drive past geylang...was kinda ok la...
hmm..celebrated my anniversary wit sayang on fri...didn't do much actually...but was kinda ok la...glad tat i got to spend time wit him...i luv u yang...i'm sori for gettin angry at u unncessarily..thanx for not scolding me & pointin out my mistakes nicely...thanx sooo much k sweetie...u've been such a patient bf to me...i appreciate tat alot...i'll try k not to get angry at u unnecessarily...
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^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:53 p.m.
Monday, November 3, 2003
firstly gotta say a very HAPPY 21st BDAY to my babelicious babe grl pal....suzi...hehehe...haf a great bday & may the year ahead of u be a great one...dah leh ngok r(A) seh...hehehe...wonder when i'm gonna go watch r(A)...been 21 for a few mths atreadi & almost turnin 22 soon & yet...i haven't went to watch r(A)...hehehehe...mayb soon ar...
didn't go to sch today...slacked at hm...didn't feel like goin to sch...mayb its coz this is the last week of sch...hehehe...can't believe i've reached the final week of my 4yrs & 6 mths of sch...pheww....gotta start findin a proper job soon...its now time to support my parents & save money...wonder if i'm able to save up any money...hehehe...i like buyin stuffs on impulse when i haf the cash in hand...wat can i say...i'm a gerl...hehehe...gerls tend to do tat rite...or do they...
talked to my sayang on the phone yesterday nite...talked bout loads of stuffs...he told me tat he's momma already told him tat she's gonna be ok wit me hangin out wit him at his hse...hmm..looks like she's ok wit me...its gonna make things easy for sayang...he can kill two birds at one time...meanin, he can spend time wit me & at the same time, spend time wit his momma....its such a big step for me...hmm...wonder if i'm prepared to do so...dok knoe la...sigh...he even sugested rotating btw hangin out at his hse & mine...means if this week we hang out at his hse, the nxt week, we're gonna hang out at mine & i was like goin..."WOW!!!"....hehehe....dok know la...i've nvr done this kinda stuffs before....wonder how its gonna be...kinda havin a mixed feelin...part of me can't wait for us to get acquainted wit both sides of the family & another part of me am not tat sure if i'm ready for it...well, i dok knoe...we'll juz see how things go...guess its gonna turn out fine...yang, i'm glad tat u wanna be part of me...hehehe...lets juz work together to make this relationship werk & may wat we haf talked bout come true..u haf been such a great & sweet bf...thanx for everything...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 04:18 p.m.
Sunday, November 2, 2003
its 5:15 in the morn...juz sahur juz now..ate yesterdays bee hoon soto which was simply delicious....hehehe...now waiting for subuh before i head back to sleep...feelin reali sleepy...went out wit my sayang yesterday...he picked me up frm hm as he wanted to wear his new sandals...showed him the thins tat i bought for him, ten put it back at hm so tat he can bring it hm when he sends me back later...ten we took a bus to town where i did a bit of window shoppin for shoes...ten went to break fast at lucky plaza where we had chicken rice...bth of us didn't get to finish the food as it wasn't tat nice...after breakin fast, walked ard to find prezzies for his niece & nephew...after tat, went to take the mrt to meet jaz & his gf at eunos mrt to go geylang...met jaz...ten we went to walk ard in geylang...bumped into loads of ppl...met up wit my fav cousins...is & nor...is been sooo long since i last met them...miss them sooo much...ten con't walkin while accompanying sayang to look for his baju kurung...saw this reali nice white baju kurung frm zain's collection tat's gonna cost him $95...dok tink its advisable for him to spend soo much on sumthin tat he's gonna wear for juz 1 time...hehehe...but cfm he's gonna lokk SOOO good in it....finally decided to make a move frm geylang ard 10:30 & finally reached hm ard 12mn...he hanged out abit outside my hse before headin hm...i had such a great time juz now...its gonna be 2 wks before go out again durin the weekends as my mama's gonna go hong kong next sun...sigh...yang, i had a splendid time wit u juz now...i'm gonna miss u sooo much....i love u k & hope tat our wishes will come true....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 05:15 a.m.
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
burp...oppss...hehehe...stil full rite now..my mom cooked mee soup & mee goreng...yummy...had nescafe & air sirap & my neighbour cooked some sorta fried potato wit egg...sedap siol...hehehe...didn't dare to eat too much of the good stuff cos too much of good stuff is no good for u when ur down wit gastric flu....arghh...vomitted most of wat i ate at 4 in the morn...yucks!!! didn't get to sleep tat well last nite...kept on tossin & turnin...woke up kinda late & felt restless...arghh!!! hope tat i'd get well soon enuff....
met up wit lis juz now at woodlands lib...been days since i last saw her...talked bout loads of stuffs...hehehe...had fun...temankan die blaja while i read some story books...ten ard 5, headed home...promise to go terawih wit her end of this week...
final presentation for my FYPJ is morrow at 9..hope its gonna be ok..ten will spent the final week of sch which is next week doin up on report...kinda havin a mixed feelin now tat sch's gonna end...am reali puzzled wit myself...
miss my sayang...its gonna be his b-day on thurs...cant celebrate it wit him cos he's in camp...sigh...wonder if we can meet up this weekend cos my mom mite be goin to hong kong for my grandma's funeral...
to my grlfrenz who's readin my blog...juz wanna let u grls knoe tat my grandma in hong kong passed away areadi...was kinda shocked bout the news...was kinda sudden...cant follow my mom to ge her funeral cos my dad's not goin & sumone gotta take care of my dad...hmm...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 07:39 p.m.
Monday, October 27, 2003
slamat berpuasa....hee...today is the first day of fastin mth...am stuck in sch rite now..feelin kinda hungry & sleepy & sick....cant fall asleep in the lab coz everytime i try to close my eyes, my throat will itch like hell & i'll haf to try to cough...sucky sia...arghh!!! almost everybody tat i knoe is fallin sick...i guess its the weather...yesterday was my daddy's bday...didn't do much..juz went to my granny's place for a family gathering...mum was the chef for yeaterday cookin all of dad's favourite dish...was kinda slack at my granny's place yesterday cos most of the ppl there were kinda sick & tat includes me...couldn't get to enjoy the food tat much cos throat was kinda sucky & the headache was another issue...
weekend was overall kinda slack..didn't do much...didn't even get to spend much time wit sayang...met him on fri & sat for a few hrs ten headed hm...sigh...wish i cud haf more time wit him before fastin mth...but circumstances didn't allow it to happen...but hey, at least we got to meet...had fun none-the-less..sori yang for bein SOOO over-sensitive the past few days...hehehe...its pms + me bein sick...arghhh!! wat a bad combination...hehe...thanx for bein such an understanding & sweet bf...i dok ever want want u to change th way ur wit me...juz ignore the remarks tat i made & wat ur sista said...i luv u for who u are k yang...
didn't even get to meet up wit sida & suzi...timing's reali bad i guess...haf to try to make time to meet up during fastin mth...buka puasa se-sama...ten the norm geylang outing...hee...haven't been meetin nurul, ayu & lis tat much aso...mayb its now time to cut down on hangin out areadi..hehe...like real...
sch's gonna end VERY soon...its like gonna end in 1 week plus like tat...gosh...need to plan out my next step areadi...argghh...wonder where i'll end up werkin at after sch ends...hmm....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 02:53 p.m.
Monday, October 20, 2003
hey ppl..am at hm rite now..can't sleep...need to sleep actually...got sch morrow...need to haf an early start as my supervisor's gonna drop by in the morn...darn!!!
weekend has been a blast to me....finally got to spend a whole day wit my sayang on sat...it was splendid....i had such a good time wit him...i met him ard 2 in the afternoon...ten finally reach hm ard 11:45 like tat..hmm..i was actually supposed to pick him up at toa payoh...but couldn't make it in time, so, we juz met at wdlnds...ten sat sumwhere near his hse while waiting for him to finish eating ten he went hm to change & shower & con't wit our date...its such a great feelin to be able to spend quality time wit him...we had so much to do...so much to talk about...gosh...was sooo bloody great...yang...i had a splendid time wit u on sat...thanx for makin the effort to spend time wit me though ur tiredm as u juz booked out...i love u yang...
didn't do much on sun...spend the whole day slackin ard...ten went to my granny's hse...was kinda ok la since i was feelin lethargic due to sat's date...hehehehe....
orite ppl..gotta go..haf a great week...ciaoz...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 12:17 a.m.
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
hey..am at hm rite now...juz hang up the phone wit my sayang...feelin kinda guilty coz i've been givin my sayang sum crappy treatment & he's bein understandin bout it..nvr even scoldin me back & he's even consoling me...dammit...shud nvr do this to him...but at times, i juz cant help it..it gets pretty frustrating when i miss him but cant do much bout it...we keep on sayin tat we miss each other badly but haf to wait till the weekend ten we get to meet each other for a few hrs only...but hey, at least we got to meet...grateful for tat...mayb tis whole ns thingy will teach me to be appreciative of him be contented wit wat we haf...i'm sooo sori yang for raising my voice at u & not bein able to say a proper "i love u" to u k...thanx for bein understandin & even makin the effort to make me feel better & not scoldin me k...i'll try to change & be a better gerlfren...
hmm...my two gerlfrenz went to rebond their hair...based on the pics tat i've seen, can say ar they both look good with the new hair-do...wait till i see them in person...heee...been quite sumtime since i last met them...mayb will catch up wit them one of these days...mayb before fastin mth, shud meet up or sumthin...
sch's gonna end soon...haven actually decide on wat i wanna do wit my future...talked to my sayang bout it...he offered me a few ideas...easy for him..his future is areadi mapped out...his application to sign on is areadi accepted so, i'll haf a cute police-boyfren...heee...dok knoe la...mayb i'll juz e-apply for the teachin thingy & for the time bein, juz find sum part-time job tat pays kinda ok...hee...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:54p.m.
Monday, October 6, 2003
hey ppl...am in sch rite now..feelin damn sleepy...the weather is makin is UNBEARABLE to keep my eyes open...yawnzz...slept late last nite...ten woke up bloody early...freakin sleepy..eyes are droopy...cant wait to go hm...ten i can sleep comfortably on my bed...went to the gym wit ayu in the morn...whole body is achin...its been SOOOO long since i last exercise my flabby body...arghh...hehe...was a fun workout...
met my sayang yesterday before he booked in back to camp...was reali great...i had a splendid time wit him...didnt do much actually...juz hang ard together but it was a great feelin to meet him...i can get enuff of him..SOO glad tat he made th effort to spend time wit me though he was tired...reali appreciate tat...hmm, met him at causeway point...hanged ard abit ten went to sit under his void deck cos had to meet his best-est fren...ten after his fren made a move, waited for him at the void deck while he went up to change...gave me quite a shock when he came down cos he juz stood behind me...hehehe...gosh...my sayang look SOOOO FUCKIN GOOD in his uniform man...cant stop tellin him or my frenz tat he look good in his uniform...yang, i love u soooo...ten went to his cousin's hse cos he wants to meet his mom before bookin in...met his mom again...ten got to play wit his EXTREMELY cute niece..fazlin...soooo cute sia & frenly too...okla yang...i gotta admit ur niece is cuter ten my nephew...hehehe...ten went back to causeway to meet his bunkmate ten took the train wit him to bishan...kept on holdin each other & cant stop kissin him...same goes wit him...had a splendid time despite one of his bunkmate bein damn irritatin...wonder wat is his prob wit me sendin my sayang back..its not like i send him all the way to PA...its juz to bishan wat...but anyhows, i dok give a damn bout wat he says...
morrow is my 2 mths anniversary...cant celebrate it wit him cos he's in camp...but there's a slim chance tat i may get to meet him cos he needs to go for him medical check up..but even if i cant meet him morrow, i'll still get to see him on weds when he books out for a while...hehehe...i asked for him for a very special gift for our 2nd mth anni..it doesnt cost a single cent...but its still special...hehehe...
met up wit ayu & lis after i send adam yesterday..juz hang-ed out for a bit ten went hm cos feelin kinda tired....had fun none-the-less...
gotta go for now..need to meet my supervisor...haf a great week ppl....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 02:34 p.m.
Saturday, October 4, 2003
before i start bloogin, i'd like to wish AYU a HAPPY 21st BDAY!!!! hey, grl, haf a great yr ahead of u aite...i knoe its been DAYS since i last updated my blog...hehe..am feelin lazy la...hmm, let me try to recap wat i've done durin the week...hmm, lets start wit weds k...went for breakfast wit jaz, ten hanged out under wawan's void deck wit wawan, nurul & jaz..ten during the evenin, hanged out wit suzi & sida...had a great time...its been quite some time since i last hang-ed out wit them...catch up on latest gossip, shared a few laughs & took pix together...forgot wat i did on thurs...hehe...ten on fri, went to geylang wit ayu for an excursion...hehehe...was kinda fun actually though didn't get to eat mee soto at haig rd...ten hang out at west mall wit nurul, lis, ayu & razman for a bit before goin to my house...ten hanged ard at my hse..ten the gerls karaoke...screamin to the top of their lungs...hehehe...fun sia...
adam was sick on fri...he got 2 days mc..so, he booked out on fri instead of sat...poor sayang...i miss him sia...it seems like we haf so little time wit each other eversince NS happened....guess i haf to be contented wit wat he has to offer...sigh...got to meet him for a while juz now at woodlands...i cant stop holdin him...i juz miss him soooo bad...had lunch together...ten juz hang ard abit while waitin for him to meet his mom...yeps...i met his mom juz now...kinda reluctant actually cos i'm kinda scared...dok knoe y la i feel tat way...perhaps i'm juz not prepared to meet his mom yet...luckily, it was ok..juz exchanged one or two sentences before i haf to make a move...hehehe....phewww...kept on lookin into adam's eye juz now...he told me sum erali touchin stuffs juz now when we met...was reali touchin...yang..i luv u soooo much...i'll try my best k to get used to the situation tat we're facin...i still wanna be wit u...
wonder when the hell is sida gonna pass me & suzi the pics...or when is she gonna upload the pics...argghhh!!! hehehe....cepat la grl...tk sabar nie...orite ppl, gotta go...haf a great weekend or wats left of it...hehehe...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:09 p.m.
Saturday, September 27, 2003
hey ppl...am in sch rite now...feelin sleepy...didnt actually feel like goin to sch but decided to go anyways since my mom is in a naggin mood..she's gonna nag if i dok go to sch today & yet am goin out later today...hehehe...i got to meet adam yesterday...YIPEE!!! met him at toa payoh since its the nearest mrt station to PA...was damn happy to meet him...i miss him loads...ten after accompanyin him to smoke, headed down to macdonalds at lot1 cos the guys are areadi watin for us to hang out abit...so, went to lot1, slacked wit the guys, shared a couple of laughs, heard adam's NS stories...at the same time, snuggle up to each other...was really great...headed hm almost 10...he sent me to the interchange, ten while watin for the bus, juz cuddle up to each other..looked into each other eyes..fallin in love all over again...hehehehe...am goin out wit him today...cant wait to see him later today...am meetin up wit jaz, aida, wawan & shana later aso...can be considered like a triple date...hehehe...gonna haf fun..cant wait...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:21 a.m.
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
hey peeps...am at hm rite now..feelin kinda tired but damn happy though...got to meet adam today...YIPEE!!! i miss him sooo much...met him juz a while...but its ok..at least got to meet him...hmm..juz hanged ard at novena cos his interview was sumwhere near there...had lunch together...ten juz hanged out..juz sat..talked bout stuffs...he looks reali tired...kesian seh..hehehe...i cant stop huggin him..holdin him..i juz miss him sooo much...gosh!!! i cant wait to meet him on fri...he'll be bookin out...heee...ten mayb we're goin out on sat...i juz cant wait...hopefully we'll be able to spend time together...to make up for the time away frm each other...
met ayu, lis & nurul after adam went for his interview...juz hanged ard..shared a few laughs...ten went hm...ten me & nurul juz walked ard in west mall to kill time, ten hanged out at my hse....had fun man juz laughin our heads off wit our usual nonsensical antics...fun sia..hehehehe....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 07:48 p.m.
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
hey..am finally in sch today after bein absent for a few days due to bein ill...still feelin sick though..guess its the weather la...sigh...my 2nd elo's completed since sun..but still waiting for my supervisor's review..i'm sure i'm gonna haf to make changes...arghh!!! xian sia...mayb will be able to meet adam morrow...since he got the 2nd interview thingy...i cant wait...he's takin his nafa test today & if he passes, its gonna be 3 wks disruption for him...i do hope tat he passes but its ok if he doesn't though we cant haf the 3 weeks, we'll still haf weekends & weds nites...he'll be bookin out on friday instead of sat cos its an alternate thingy..hehehe..will be pickin him up on friday evenin...ten we'll spend sat together...hehehe...i miss him sooooo bloody much & he's aso in the same state as i am...hehehe...been surviving with our daily phonecalls & sms(s)...glad tat he's makin the effort to call me at least twice a day...hehehe...i'm stil adjustin to him servin ns...cant say tat i'm areadi stronger areadi...but i'll be fine...guess its gonna take a longer time to get adjusted to his ns thingy...hehehe...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 12:15 p.m.
Thursday, September 18, 2003
i muz be a crazy gerl to wake up soooo early today though cant sleep tat well yesterday...was tossing & turning for most of yesterday nite...feelin sick..tink its gastric flu...all thanx to my brother coz when he was sick, he slept on my bed most of the time & using my pillow...arghh!! one of the reasons y i hate to share my pillow wit other ppl...am still at hm..mite go to sch later...still feelin lazy & my tummy aches...hehehe...am meetin suzi & sida later for lunch at 12:30...haven't been meetin them much since we're occupied with our own stuffs & they're areadi werkin so, time is kinda an issue rite now...been meetin nurul daily these days...had a great time hangin out juz like the good old days...i juz miss the good old days...when all of us cud actually hang out together & haf loads of fun...bumped into ayu at westmall yesterday while i was sittin with nurul ard 4 sumthin...she joined me & nurul at our table for a while before goin back to sit with her bf...am jelous of nurul rite now coz her bf's gonna book out this weekend...u lucky bitch!!!! hahaha....tkya nk eksyen pe...juz realised tat i mite be able to meet adam earlier then i tot...supposedly to be able to meet him only on next sat...but juz member-ed tat he has a second interview for the sign on thingy on the 24th...which is next weds...so, i guess we'll meet for abit...ten on sat, i'll pick him up after he books out...hehehe...cant wait to see him in the white shirt, blue pants, shoes & his botak hair...hahaha...am surviving with the short daily phonecalls...at least its better ten not being able to tok at all...thank GOD!!! am missing him sooo much cos i guess i'm used to havin him ard me most of the time...but i'll survive...its juz NS wat...hahaha...like real...I LUV U SOOOOO MUCH YANG!!!! hahaha...orite gotta go for now...catcha later...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 08:31 a.m.
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
hey ppl...am in sch rite now..feelin sleepy, tired & worst of all...missin my sayang...hehehe...he's goin ns today...kinda missin him areadi...though we met yesterday..he went the dreaded NS areadi...today actully at 9am..he called me in the morn juz now when he was havin his b'fast..ten when he wanted to go out of hm...met him yesterday at causeway pt ten we went to lot1 together with nurul & elfi...hanged out wit the guys...as much as i want to be selfish & haf him to myself...i knoe its not gonna be fair to him...though he ask me to decide if its juz gonna be the two of us or i wanna hang out wit the guys...decided to share him wit the guys cos they aso wanna meet him before he go ns..its ok..we'll haf other days to meet after he book out tat is..yesterday turned out to be a VERY emotional day for me..cant believe i did wat i did infront of adam when we were waitin for the bus..i actually cried in front of him...its not like i haf never cried for my previous relationships...but i NVR cry infront of the guys...and i'd normally cry for them coz they broke my heart or did sumthin to make me upset...but i actually cried yesterday cos adam said tat he loves me...weird rite...i guess love makes the world go round...hehe...so mushy!!! yesterday while at lot1, adam was sittin next to me...juz holdin my hand & never lettin go...at times he talked to the guys...ten at times, he'd juz look at me & i'll look back into his eyes & my eyes will be misty...juz by lookin into his eyes, i can feel his love for me...this relationship is reali different from my previous ones...nvr knew tat a guy can be sooo damn expressive with how he reali feels...he's not shy bout his feelins & i muz say, im kinda shocked...as i'm typin this blog, all the things tat he said to me keeps on playin in my mind & i'd smile to myself...gosh!!! never want any of this to change...cant wait for him too book out frm camp...yang, juz hang on in there k...i'll miss u as much as ur gonna miss me & i'll promise to be strong & aso to grant ur one & only wish to sayang u se-sayang, sayangnye...i hope tat we'll make it through...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:28 a.m.
Saturday, September 13, 2003
hey ppl...i'm at hm now...feelin kinda tired but damn HAPPY!!! adam came back fr kl today & i got to meet him juz now...didnt go anywhere far...met him at civic centre ten i accompanied him for dinner....ten decided to go hang ard at bukit batok area...so we can get to spend more time together & its easier for him to send me hm...it was sooo great to be able to meet him juz now....we juz sat...looked into each other's eyes...i'm sooo contented wit life now...never want any of this to change...i'm fallin deeper in love wit him...he's a great person to be with....bein such a sweet boyfren & all...time's kinda limited rite now...he's goin ns on tues...bth of us cant meet on sunday...tat leaves us wit monday...cant wait to see him again....reali appreciate the fact tat he actually met me rite after reachin hm & not even caring that he's tired...thanx sayang....i reali appreciate all that u haf done for me & i reali love the gifts that u got me...i reali like all of them alot...im serious....
met nurul juz now before meeting adam...listened to her probs...reali sorry to listen to her probs juz now...grl, juz hang on in there k..im sure that things will work out juz great....wish u all the best gerl...nurul hanged out wit me & adam juz now...it was great...had tonnes of laughs...hehehe....fun day out....orite gotta go..haf a gd weekend...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:31 p.m.
Friday, September 12, 2003
its been days since i last updated this page...life's been pretty ok...been hangin out durin the days & stayin at hm at nites...met up wit old frenz like ray, nurul & raudha to do sum long deserved catchin up...i had tonnes of fun man!!! hehehe....adam's still in kl..will only be back on sat tat is tomorrow...i cant wait!!! its been days since i last saw him...only surviving on our daily short phonecalls...i contented with tat...at least he made the effort to call me daily...in order to keep in touch wit me, resorted to buyin a singtel hi-card...ten the value dried up..hahaha...ten used coins..which wasnt tat satisfyin coz it was too short...ten bought a phone card..and all the phone card phones was spoilt..and finally, a m'sia hi-card...hahaha....at least wit tat hi-card, we managed to tok-ed for quite sumtime...he said tat we're gonna meet morrow when he comes back...i knoe he's gonna be tired after the long trip..but its nice to hear tat he'll make the effort to meet me...dok knoe la..we'll see...tryin to spend as much time together since he's goin ns on tuesday...which sucks..but i'll be ok..i knoe tat we'll be ok...hehehe...okla...gotta prepare for my first critique session...wish me luck aite...cant wait for morrow....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 09:53 a.m.
Friday, September 5, 2003
hey..am at hm now...juz finished addin a pic gallery to my website...feelin tired...did nothin much these two days...juz plain slackin & hangin out...adam's stil in kl...i miss him sooo....he's been callin me daily...glad tat he make the time to call me everyday....hehehe...guess i haf to be contented with the short phonecalls...stil dok knoe when he'll be back...i guess its up to his mom...but its ok..i dok mind..i understand tat he's spendin time wit his mom...i'm juz happy to be able to hear his voice wheneva he calls & when he says tat he loves & misses me, i'd be on cloud 9...ten i'd juz keep on grinning like an idiot...tinkin of the wonderful times we spent together...can't wait for his return....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:36 p.m.
Wednesday, September 3, 2003
hey ppl...am at hm rite now...tryin to do my flash thingy...but there's sum probs wit the software..so, takin a rest for a while...adam's away in kl now...he came back on sun...since he got an interview on tues...met him on monday to catch league of extraordinary gentlemen...was reali happy & estatic to meet him on mon...missed him soo much...it was great...went to watch the movie at cineleisure...then after that, juz walked ard in town...ten after movie, ate at lido...ten after tat, went to lot 1 to hang out...after lot 1, he sent me hm..but before that, we hanged ard summore...talked bout us...ten on tues, picked him up after his interview at novena after i finish sch...then met suzi & sida for a while to take my pic frm sida...talked for a while with them then they went back...ten me & adam juz hanged ard abit...ten after that went hm together...sumthin weird happened...we wore the same thing...hehehe...bth of us wore a yellow polo top & brown pants...hehehe...weird sia...then today, i met him for lunch before he went off to kl to join his mom & sis...had lunch at burger king...ten after tat, accompanied him to buy a singtel hi-card since it has autoroam...hehehe...tat means tat i'll still be able to contact him...ten we juz hanged ard...sat, talked, looked into each others eyes...realising tat i'm a happier grl eversince he came into my life....ten after tat, i had to go back to sch & he had to make a move...was kinda sad tat he had to leave again...but i dok wanna say much bout it, i dok wanna make him feel guilty for goin kl again coz he wants to accompany his mom...i shud be an understanding gerlfren...shouldn't make it more diff for him...i'll be ok...he called me twice areadi while he's in the bus on the way to kl...hehehe...kept on sayin tat he misses & lurves me...hehehe...frankly, i'm missin him areadi..but its ok...life goes on...he said tat he'll be back earliest on the 10th sept or latest by the 12th...in the meantime, i'll juz keep myself occupied..i'll be ok....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 09:33 p.m.
Saturday, August 30, 2003
hey ppl...am at hm rite now..cant fall asleep though am feelin tired...didn't do much today...went to sch...ten went hm...ten went out wit my parents....am goin to batam wit my mom & sis morrow...together wit my mom's frenz...wonder how it'll be..
adam's away in m'sia...tink he'll be back morrow...am missin him...but it's ok...i'm ok...can't wait to meet him...yang, mayb when u read this, i'll stil will not be back frm batam...i miss u sayang...cant wait to meet u...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:22 p.m.
Friday, August 29, 2003
hey...am at hm rite now...juz felt like updatin my website...cant sleep rite now...juz finish tokin to my dear...he's leavin for his trip morrow nite...but guess wat, he'll be back on sunday...yipee!!!! cos he needs to go for his police interview on tuesday, 2/9/03...hehe...tat means tat i can meet him faster then i expect it to be...but he'll be goin back to join his mom in m'sia after spendin a few days in s'pore...he aso promised tat he'll spend time wit me...guess i'm gonna miss him when he goes m'sia...but as the sayin goes, absence makes the heart grow fonder...hee...gosh...i'm soo happy & contented wit life rite now...wish nothing's ever gonna change...met him yesterday...he accompanied me in sch ten after tat we went to bugis to look for his sandals...spent the whole day together...i had a great time...thanx dear...luv u loads...!!!
met sida juz now to pass her the me start-up disk...she was wit kechik...sat & tok-ed for a while while waitin for her fren...ten she asked for my pix wit adam...said tat suzi wanted to see it...wonder wat suzi will say....my dearest gerlfrenz...i value each of ur opinions k...everyone's entitled to their own point of view...i knoe tat my past relationships haf been screw ups but trust me k...i'm juz seekin for my own happiness...hope tat u guys will wish me happiness....luv u gerls...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 12:47 a.m.
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
hey...i knoe its been days since i last updated my blog..been pretty busy lately...sch's a bore...i still havent't get wat project am i supposed to do...sucky sia & its makin me more lazy to attend sch...had my ept test yesterday...gosh!!! didn't koe tat malay language cud be tat difficult...i was practically strugglin for tat paper...damn difficult...sigh...even the oral was areadi fucked up...the written paper was worse...
hmm...life's been a breeze these days...i'm feelin damn happy..even my mom noticed tat i look hapier then before...its all thanx to my beloved, adam...yeps...made it official wit him...he's such a sweet boyfren...i luv him!!! told my 2 gerlfrenz bout me & adam yesterday...hmm, their reaction was wat i expected it to be...its ok guys...i knoe tat most of my relationships haf been a failure...tats y u guys keep on askin me to choose the right guy....everybodys allowed to haf their own opinion...juz hope tat u guys can be happy for me....rite now i'm in sch...feelin sleepy...adam's comin down to sch later to meet me after his TP...yipee!!! i cant wait...we're tryin to spend much time together cos he mite be leavin for m'sia either on thurs or fri & will only be back on 12th sept...damn...tats long...ten after tat, he'll be servin ns on 16th sept...and will be confined for about 10 days...tat sux...but its ok...i knoe tat i'll be strong...on tues, i went to meet my frenz at lot1...it was fun....they were tryin to pressurize me & adam into tellin them how we got started...it was funny...was practically laughin our heads off...hehehe...took a couple of pix wit usop's digital cam...cant wait to look at em'...okla..gotta go..need to go for smokes...catcha later....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:41 a.m.
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
hey ppl...i'm in sch rite now...doin my fypj...kinda dry rite now cos we're juz supposed to find more info on using flash...i cant d/l msn...tat sux!!! am feelin kinda tired due to my kl trip...speakin of which, it was GREAT!!! i had a superb time there...went to hard rock cafe on friday...it was loud!!! then there's a live band that sounds reali great...and ard 12 plus, it was back to some r&b, hip hop, pop & trance music...didn't dance though...perhaps its cos i'm didnt drink & i'm too shy to make a fool outta myself...hehehe...b4 that hanged out at starbucks at klcc...admired the view of the fountain...its sumthin like our musical fountain in sentosa..was beautiful...then after HRC, we went to look for nice food for supper but decided to order room service as didnt dare to take the risk & haf a problematic stomach...hehehe...ten on sat, went to sunway lagoon..had tonnes of fun...was wet due to the rides...then took a ride on the "tomohawk" that turned 360 degrees front & back...was thrillin but didn't reali like it...the roller coaster was fun & of course thrillin..was practically screamin my lungs out...hehehe...the other rides was aso great...but after sunway, was realli tired...went back to the hotel to bath & rest then went out again...then on sunday, went to the HUGE shoppin mall...spent 6 hrs in there but i didnt get to finish goin to all the shops...can u imagin how huge that place is....gosh...hehhee...then on monday, packed my stuffs & headed back to s'pore...i reali had a great time there...it was superb...then when i got hm, my bro told me he bought a cd-rw & a cool epson printer...heheheh...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 09:43 a.m.
Thursday, August 14, 2003
woohooo!!!! last day of attachment...cant wait for the day to end...thne goin on a trip morrow...great rite...i juz can't wait...one of my collegue got me a gift...a very nice one i must say..realli like it alot...but a bit paiseh..i didn't get her anything..hehehe....week has been pretty hectic & tiring...had to do up my pc piece by piece as it was a d.i.y. thingy...was kinda fun actualli but hell, cant say it has made me like IT more...IT stil sux...hehehe....gonna go back to sch nxt week...haf to do my FYPJ...managed to got a project that doesn't require programming...juz flash...yipee!!! am feelin great today...but deep down, feelin kinda sad...its supposed to be my 1yr 6mths anniversary wit is...but damn..things haf to be this way...i still do think of him..still miss him & on sum nights, i still cry for him...its realli sad the way things are...but things always happen for a reason...if we're meant to be, we'll end up together no matter wat...i still do love him though...but i knoe that i'll be strong...i'll survive without him...better stop tokin bout him before i get blue...hehehe...mite be hangin out with the gerls if they're free that is since its the last day of ipp....cant wait for morrow....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:59 a.m.
Monday, August 11, 2003
hey i'm back...its been days since i last update tis page...life's been pretty hectic & busy wit family stuffs...tiring...weekend wasn't much rest...it got me more tired i must say...sucky rite...arghh...dok reali knoe wat to say here...hmm...lets start by last thurs k...need to start sumwhere...i went to catch tomb raider at jurong point...ten after the movie..walked ard...ended up buyin a top...ten after tat, went to my fren's void dect to hang out for a while...movie was great...ten on fri, met my fren after werkt o take sumthin frm him...sat ard for a few smokes ten went back hm to help my mom wit the cookin for saturday's event...on sat, i headed down to my aunt's hse for my late uncle's first yr death anniversary...was tiring...was dead beat when i got hm...toked on the phone for a while...ten went to sleep...on sun, i tot i'd get my rest, but ten, my mom waked me up at bout 9am to follow to go to the cemetary..ten after tat, went to brunch at west coast...ten headed down to sim lim to buy computer stuffs...reached hm at bout 5 plus..ten went to help my bro wash the van...I'M DEAD BEAT.....and rite now i'm at werk....cant wait for my attachment term to end...arghh!!!
^commfreak^ spit on u at 02:55 p.m.
Thursday, August 7, 2003
hie...am in the ofc...wats new...hmm, my attachment's gonna end nxt week...yipee!!!!! can't wait...but dammit...sch startin the following week...arghh!!! wat can i say...my happiness's is only temporarily...hehehe...am goin hm early today...got plans....nak gi ngok wayang...hehehe...hopefully the cerita would be great...can't wait...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 01:39 p.m.
Tuesday, August 5, 2003
hey..am at werk..weekend was reali tiring...started wit a bbq & ended wit a funeral...the bbq was ok la...not tat happening...but i had fun hangin out wit my pals...ten on sun, i juz stayed at my grandma's hse...ten while slackin, my aunt called & said tat my grand uncle passed away...it was kinda shockin actaully...none of us were prepared for tat news...there was like a moment of silence...its like everyone is tryin to digest the news...ten there were tears followed...took urgent leave yesterday to attend the funeral...was reali sad...still in a state of shock rite now...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 02:23 p.m.
Saturday, August 2, 2003
hey...i'm at werk..feelin dead sleepy...thank GOD my werk is done...so i can juz slack ard...hmm...i went out wit adam yesterday...its not a date la...its juz tat i accompanied him to sch to submit a letter ten after tat, he wanted to buy some shirts so, we went to jurong point..it was fun goin out wit him...except for the fact that most of the gerls were glaring at me & smilin to him...i wonder y...hmm...like tis time while we were eatin at long john's, i noticed tat the gerl at the counter kept on glancin at him ten smiling..ten when he came back, i asked him la if he did disturb tat gerl coz she kept on smilin so sweetly to him...ten he said no...ten when the gerl send food to the table nxt to us, she was smilin at him ten glaring at me...i was goin like..wat the fuck ten i told him bout it...and aso said tat y the hell did she do tat...she can haf him if she wants..fucked up rite these gerls...i managed to convince him to buy a sorta wool polo-tee at giordano...he looks great in it...hehehe...btw, met sida at jp yesterday...coz she was waiting for her bf...hanged out for a while & saw sumthin she did tat made me shocked...hehehe...chill gerl...it was fun...juz plain slackin...today i'm goin for a bbq at east coast...not sure if i'm gonna stay overnite or go hm at bout 4 plus in the morn...i guess it all depends if hows the bbq...if i'm havin fun, perhaps i'll stay overnite...haf a great weekend ppl....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:36 a.m.
Friday, August 1, 2003
hey..am at werk...tired man...am rather sleepy...i miss those days when i get to wake up in the late noon...am takin half-day today...yipee...got plans today...hehehe...i juz blogged yesterday sayin tat its been days since i last heard frm is...guess wat, he sms-ed me last nite...was kinda shocked...he asked me how am i, how's my day & stuff...juz the norm stuff...sayin tat he loves & misses me...arghh...its areadi hard on me to get him outta my system...but when he does this kinda things, i get confused...i haf to admit to the fact tat i still love him so fuckin much...but...i dok knoe...ten i sms-ed him back sayin tat i aso love him...but i want him to settle his issues first before coming back to me coz i dok wanna go thru any more pain...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 09:46 a.m.
Thursday, July 31, 2003
hey...been pretty lazy to update my blog...cos i've been bz at werk...haf to meet up wit dateline...am realli tired...mayb takin half-day today...emm, well i went out wit jaz on tuesday to buy a gift for his gf...ten after was supposed to hang out wit him & wawan like the good old days...but UNFORTUNATELY, when we reached wawan's void deck, yus was there...dammit...i juz acted like he's not ard...didn't even tok to him at all...ten we went for dinner wit wawan's family...wawan's treat...he got his pay...had a nice seafood dinner...got a lift hm from wawan...took a ride on an ambulance..was kinda cool except for the fact there's the hospital smell...arghhh!!! ten yesterday, i went to hang out at lot 1 wit the guys...it was great...been a very long time since all of us was there...yus was there aso...as per norm, i ignored him...was practically laughin my head off wit the guys antics...and adam was sittin next to me the whole time...i wonder y...hahaha...but he's juz a fren...i'm too fragile rite now to go about any serious thins...and he's like 2 yrs younger...i went hm at bout 8:30 like tat...wanted to stay longer but i was tired & yus was givin me the fucked up face...surprisingly, adam went hm wit me...hmm, the guys was givin us weird look when i told them tat i'm goin back ten adam aso stood up & told them he's goin back wit me...dammit...they surely tat sumthin's fishy & yus was reali makin the fucked up face but hell i dok care...my conscience is clear ....hahaha......ten he accompanied me while i was waitin for the bus....ten he went hm takin the train...he msg-ed me at bout 3 plus...said tat he's appeal for de-ferment was rejected & he's goin ns 16th sept...i pity him...he's in the middle of sch...
its been days since i last heard frm is...i miss him..i wanna call him or sms him...but i can't...i can't go on abusing my pride...it sux...tat's y i've been tryin to keep my time occupied these days....keep on tellin myself to be strong...arghh...life goes on....mayb tomorrow will be better...i hope so...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 12:04 p.m.
Monday, July 28, 2003
hey...am at werk...hows ur weekend ppl??? mine was catchin up on the rest tat i needed...was supposed to go out wit ayu on sat but plans was cancelled due to sum last min thingy...adam & jaz asked me out...but i juz didn't feel like goin out wit any of em...tot of hangin out wit my gerl pals...but everybody's occupied...so, i catch up on my sleep...ten on sun, was supposed to be family day...so, i juz hanged ard...hanged out wit my bro...was quite fun though...played game, toked "cock"...ten at nite helped him out wit his survey on "PUBLIC PERCEPTION OF FEMALE SMOKERS"...it couldn't be a better topic rite...hahaha...then toked to jaz on the phone till bout 4 plus in the morn & rite now...i'm dead stoned at werk...mayb goin out wit him on tues to look for his gf's bday prezzie...got a bbq tis sat...it's jaz's gf bday bbq pit...perhaps i'm goin...if i'm not tat lazy...hmm, 3 more wks to the end of my attachment term...and tat aso means 3 more weeks to my kl trip...i juz can't wait....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:48 a.m.
Thursday, July 24, 2003
hey ppl...i'm at werk alone..feelin tired & sleepy...had loads of stuffs to do...but juz feelin too damn lazy to do it...juz not in the mood...i wanna go home!!!! arghh...the air con in the ofc is spoilt...so, haf to make do wit the fan & wind since i open the window...kinda humid actually but thankfully, there's occasional wind...gosh..this ofc is realli bad man...hahahaha....is sms-ed me yesterday askin me how's my day, how am i, he misses me...etc...i'm reali confused...i'm happy tat he sms-ed but....i dok knoe la...juz now, i sms-ed him askin him sumthin, ten he didn't reply...so, i called ten he rejected my call...ten he sms-ed me back sayin tat he's sori for the late reply cos he didn't notice & he's sori tat he had to reject my call coz he's busy...was pretty shocked readin his msgs...wonder since when did he say sori for these kinda minor stuffs...wat's he's up to...i missin him aso...as bad a s he misses me i knoe...but tis time apart will do good for us i knoe...hopefully he'll learn to appreciate me better if thins were to happen...i dok knoe...if we're fated to be together, we'll end up together....i juz wanna be a happy person at the end of the day....gotta go guys...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 03:34 p.m.
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
I can’t get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way
To leave the love behind
I ain't trippin’
I'm just missin’ you
You know what I'm sayin'
You know what I mean
You kept me hangin' on a string
Why you make me cry
I tried to give you everythin'
But you just give lies
I ain't trippin’
I'm just missin’ you
You know what I'm sayin'
You know what I mean
I can't take it
What am I waitin' for
My heart's still breakin’
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinkin’ of you
It's true; I'm stuck on you
^commfreak^ spit on u at 12:34 p.m.
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
hey...i'm in the ofc...tired siak...bth emotionally & physically...but i'm sure its gonna get better...hmm...met up wit suzi & sida yesterday after werk..had tonnes of laughs...took sum stupid pix wit sida's new digital cam...those pix are worth a thousand words man...hahaha...esp if our parents saw em'...hahaha...gotta go...i'm hungry now....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:08 a.m.
Tuesday, July 22, 2003
hey...i'm stil stuck in the ofc...feelin xian due to the workload...arghh...i took half day yesterday...went to suzi's hse...got no mood to werk...juz hanged out at her hse..ten we watched dumb & dumberer....that movie was dumb man...hehehe...but funny though...had fun hangin out wit suzi...thanx babe for keepin me company...i guess i reali need tat half day...my mind wasn't even focused while doin my paperwerk...so, before i make stupid mistakes, i applied for half day...thank god it was approved..hehehe...i'm missin is...but its ok...i guess i'll keep myself occupied....we'll see how tis whole take a break thingy wud go...if its meant to be, it'll happen...suzi juz sms-ed me askin us to go hang out...wish i cud but i tink morrow wudbe better...i'm broke rite now...hehehe...catcha later ppl...gotta take a break...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 04:21 p.m.
Monday, July 21, 2003
hey..its a monday & i'm at werk...i sorta settled things wit is yesterday...i actually sms-ed him sayin sumthin like "i guess it over btw us..dok wori, i dok blame u..i blame myself for givin u the chance to hurt me again...may u find happiness at the expense of my pain...take care is.." he did sms me back...sendin a pic msg saying tat he misses me...i was practically cryin my heart out while tokin to my fren jaz...jaz asked me to sms him back...so i did wit tears on my face...i managed to find out tat he's holdin on 2 jobs to pay the fine of $1700 for the illegal modifications thingy...he's sleepin only 2 hrs per day...my heart goes out to him...he said tat he doesn't want to let me go...he juz wanna chill for a while...ask me to let him settle his prob first ten he'll get back to me...ten i asked him wat he wants me to do...i suggested a short break...ten after tat, try to win me back...if i'll take him back tat is...i dok knoe if i made the rite decision...but at least i knoe where i stand...my mind is kinda calm rite now...i feel sorta reliefed after sorta sortin things out wit him...dok knoe la...my eyes are puffy & swollen today...sux rite...juz hope for the best....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 09:50 a.m.
Saturday, July 19, 2003
by the way...forgot to say tis...i need ur help guys & gerls...i tot of a msg to sms is in a few days time tats gonna make his heart wench...but at the same time, i want ur ideas too...wat wud u say to sumone u REALLY love at the end of the relationship to make his heart wench...help me out guys...
one night all I wanted to do
was feel your touch
and to give you all of my love
but you took my love for granted
want my lovin now
but you cant have little
God sent me an Angel
from the Heavens above
Sent me an Angel to heal my broken heart,
From being in love,
'cause all I dooo...is cry(is cry)
God sent me an Angel
to wipe the tears from my eyes
^commfreak^ spit on u at 12:06 p.m.
Saturday, July 19, 2003
boy...i had tonnes of fun yesterday hangin out...laughed our heads off...catchin up on old times...bitchin ard...gosh...was great dude...hehehe....hanged out at starbucks wit suzi, aziz, ray & geva...me & suzi were ooglin at those HOT BOD GUYS from california fitness...boy...they were hot...hahaha...tight asses & nice bod...hahaha...we hanged out till bout 9 plus...ten i had to make a move since i'm werkin today...i was tired but i dok mind...it was great...and guess wat, i reached werk late today...reached the ofc ard 10:30...hehehe...i saw ayu's bf yesterday under my void deck wit his frenz when i came hm...wondering wat the hell is he doin under my void deck...nvr seen him ard before...callled ayu when i got hm...told her bout it...she's havin sum prob wit her bf...hopefully everything will turn out ok....managed to forget bout my prob temporarily...dok knoe y but i missed him badly yesterday...reali felt like callin him...but didn't...i must persevere for the sake of my happiness...i dok knoe....gotta go...ppl...haf a great weekend....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:56 a.m.
Thursday, July 17, 2003
hey...i'm in the ofc...i had a great time yesterday hangin out wit my pals...suzi, sida, ayu, shikin...had a great time laughin, bitchin, etc...was a great way to de-stress...made me forget bout my prob temporarily...though its stil cloggin my mind...thank babelicious babes for a great time yesterday...was practically laughin our heads off...hanged out till bout 9 plus ten headed off home in the heavy rain with thunders & lightning...was drenched by the time i reach hm...mite be hangin out again this friday wit the gerls & guys...if i can escape frm my religious class tat is...hehehe...i hope i can make it...coz i knoe its gonna be another fun day out...well, bout is, i'm still confused actually...i dok exactly knoe wat to do wit him...for the time bein, i'm juz gonna leave him alone...ten one fine day, i'll sms him a very touchin msg tat comes from my heart tats gonna make his heart wench like wat i went thru...its sad tat thins are happenin tis way...there's no doubt tat i still love him deeply...i still miss him so damn much...i still need him..we'll see how things go...let's juz hope tat wateva the outcome is, i'll be a happier person at the end of the day...pray for me ppl....gotta go..paperwerk's callin....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:22 a.m.
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
Baby, I don't know why your treating me so bad
You said you love me, no one above me
And I was all you had
And though my heart is beatin for ya
I can't stop crying
I don't know how
I allow you to treat me this way and still I stay
Baby,
Why you hurt me?
Leave me and desert me
Boy, I gave you all my heart
And all you did was tear it up
Looking out my window
Knowing that I should go
Even when I pack my bags
This something always hold me back
^commfreak^ spit on u at 02:47 p.m.
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
hmm..i'm at werk..juz finished assignin task to the newer ipp students...gosh..i didn't knoe lookin for things for ppl to do is so damn diff in this ofc...i'm tired...sleepy, cranky and all the fucked up thins in life...my l.o. came juz now...had a chat at macdonalds & drank iced tea...his treat of course...well it was a long overdue visit...he's supposed to come during my 1st week but i've been at this place for almost 2 mths aready...hehehe...had a nice chat...kinda great though considerin the fact tat my life sux...sida juz changed the layout again...and i LOVE it...thanx sida...hmm...my sis asked me if i wanna go kl wit her on the 15th aug till 17th aug...i only haf to pay $40 for my bus fare...hotel & food is being sponsored..i only haf to fork out my spending money...sounds like a good deal..perhaps i'll go...i need to get away anyway...life's been pretty hectic...and fucked up...lets not even start tokin bout is...yeps...i tink i'm goin...but need to take leave as my attachment ends on 16th aug...but who cares...i'll juz take leave man....hahaha...but need to convince my mom though...hehehe....but i wanna go..need a vacation..can go sunway lagoon...its gonna be fun though i'm goin wit my sis...can actually get her to pay for my thins & i can meet "boy"...we can go out together...hehehehe...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:57 a.m.
Monday, July 14, 2003
"happy 17 mths anniversary mummy...i noe tat i've been the worst boyfren anyone cud ever get...i'm grateful tat ur in my life...i hope tat u'll con't to be patient wit my during these diff times...i'll make ur patience worthwhile k...i love u more wit each passin day..." and tat's supposed to appease all my anger...i don't knoe...i seriusly don't knoe anymore...i've been thru alot...i knoe tat i still love him though he's a pain in the ass....but damn...how much of these kinda treatment can i put up wit...everybody has their bad days...even i haf my bad days...but i NEVER vent it on him...dok knoe la...when he said tat to me...i juz kept quiet...i dok knoe how to react...i juz managed to say a weak happy anniversary to u too...i also luv u more wit each passin day...i juz hope tat this phase will past very soon...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:13 a.m.
Thursday, July 10, 2003
been keepin myself bz at werk today to keep my mind of sum thins..life's a bitch but hell..it goes on..didn't tok to is the whole of yesterday..didn't even bother to call him up..or even msg him..i juz couldn't take another "i takde mood la.." its gonna make me more pissed off..almost asked for a break up yesterday..but didn't coz i member tat he said to me recently tat no matter wat i do, he juz won't let me go even if tat means tat i haf a fling..its gonna be pointless & i myself am not too sure if tats the best way out..sux rite..well, he sms-ed me in the morn askin me to call lta & change his appt date for the inspection..boy he has the cheek..givin me the attitude & stil needin my help..well, i did reply his msg but 2 hrs later..tellin him tat it was ok & after several msgs from him askin me y the silence or y i haven't reply his msg..when i finally replied, he asked me y am i givin him the attitude..how fucked up can it be..its like he's the one wit the attitude & suddenly, he's askin me y am i givin him the attitude..well excuse me 4 the attitude..i told him tat its all his fault..his moodiness is rubbin on me..he said sori & he wants to meet me today..as much as i wanted to meet him too, i tink my pride is at stake..so, i juz told him tat i'm tired & sick..can't meet him & aso tat i'm not in one of my best mood..so, we mite juz end up fightin..he kinda pissed but he said tat he knoes tat he can't be angry wit me coz its his fault, he started tis..watever la..i'm juz stil pissed..fucked up...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 04:44 p.m.
Tuesday, July 8, 2003
ever felt like givin up but juz can't coz u luv the person too much...the feelin sux rite...it makes me feel sooo bloody hopeless...i tried to be strong...but i'm failin badly...im breakin up inside but on the outside, i'm juz bein my norm self...i try hard not to show tat i'm sad or emotional...but when i'm alone, i can juz break down to tears as easy as abc...perhaps tis is a test tat i haf to go thru to be wit the person i love...there's no doubt tat he loves me too but at times his ways are juz to much for me to take...dok knoe la...juz can't make up my mind if a break up is the best way out...perhaps i shud tink when my mind is clear...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:27 a.m.
Monday, July 7, 2003
hey..its a damn blue monday...feelin VERY emotional rite bout now...juz feel like my whole life is fallin apart...it reali sux when i feel tat way...sigh...met up wit one of my pals ayu yesterday...had loads to tok about...kinda freed both our mind...but i'm stil feelin troubled...damn...can't blog anymore for now...life sux...
i members the nites tat i cried for u
i member the way tat u made me suffer
i member the pain tat i went thru coz of u
but i aso member tat i love u so...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 12:17 p.m.
Friday, July 4, 2003
hey...its a friday...supposed to be glad tat the weekends drawing near but due to sum circumstances, i'm sooo bloody pissed...how sucky can life be...i keep on askin myself, y can't i haf a normal relationship...y shud i settle for him when i knoe tat my life wud make more sense without him...but at the end of all my questions & doubt, i'd still knoe tat i luv him...i dok wanna lose him...y issit tat the person who means most to me is aso the person who can make me feel at my worst...damn...life sucks at time don't u tink...and to tink tat i keep on tellin myself tat i've had enuff fights to last me for a few mths...shit...arghh!!!! hope tat tomorrow wud be a better day or perhaps later of today...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 01:27 p.m.
Wednesday, July 2, 2003
oit..hehehe..in the ofc..feelin lazy..dok feel like doin any werk today..but there's a huge stack of paper work waitin for me..xian..i met sida yesterday..sat..hang out..shared our probs..not forgettin our norm, daily bitchin..hahaha..had tonnes of fun..can't believe tat both our parents haf the same tinkin..kinda sucky rite..but nonetheless, we stil luv them..rite sida...???!!! hehehe...is called me @ hm yesterday while i went down to the shop..my sis told him i wasn't in...ten he called my hp..i didn't bring it...hehehe...can u imagine how freaked out he was when i didn't ans his calls...hehehe...take u the medicine...when i called him back, he was like goin..."y didn't u ans my calls..?? where did u go..?? y didn't bring ur hp..??" gosh...can't believe tat he'll freak out b'coz of tat...ten he told me tat when i'm successful in life, i'd forget all bout him & find sumone better...i tink he was havin sum prob wit his self esteem yesterday...doesn't he understand tat i luv him so bloody much despite all of his faults...geez...speakin of the devil...he juz called me...he said tat he juz wanted to hear my voice....awww....hahaha....he's so sweet the past few days & i'm sooo madly in love wit him...he told me tat he'll be havin guard duty today...ten on fri...ten on sat he has tis army meetin or sumthin...wonder when i'm gonna meet him...i miss him soo...but i tink i'm used to tis rarely-meetin-each-other arrangement...i no longer make any noise if we dok meet tat much...hehehe...guess i'm beginnin to appreciate havin my own space...gotta go for now...my paperwerk is callin...hehehe...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 09:58 a.m.
Monday, June 30, 2003
hey...i'm all alone in the ofc...feelin blue on a monday morn...hows ur weekend ppl??? mine was ok la...i finally got to meet the two bitches on sun...almost didn't make it coz my family made plans areadi...but luckily, it was delayed...met the two bitches...had tonnes of laugh...but for a short while though...we managed to bitch under the sun...hehehe...not much bitchin though...hehehe...i miss u gerls...gotta find more time to hang out wit them...i'm gonna get my pay on 2nd july...juz a miserly amt...dok tink i can spend most of it...gotta pay my hp bills...pay my mom back...arghhh...!!! went to wawan's bday on sat nite...was kinda fun...played games & got to eat at macdonalds for free...wasn't tat bad...hehehehe...well, endy & yus was there together wit their respective gerls...guess wat...the gerls, look at me ten glared at me...wassup man...??!!! hell...i dok even want any of those guys...they can go ahead & keep their boyfrens...i've had enuff of endy & yus man...sux rite...can't blame me if i'm prettier then them...hahahaha...is was tryin to be funny yesterday...called me up at 10:30 while i was sleepin...ten said its ok...go back to sleep...after hangin up the phone, i can't go back to sleep ten i called him back..ten he said tat he's goin to sleep again...arghh!!! wake me up on a sun morn, ten he went back to sleep...life's a bitch...!!! ten after tat, he called me again at 2 plus...talked for a while ten hang up cos i had to get ready...he was kinda pissed tat i dok wanna listen to him & stay at hm...hahahah...listen to him & end wats left of my pathetic social life...ohh...plsss...!!! he juz called me in the ofc..he's havin his lunch break...said tat he misses me...hmm...i dok knoe...i miss him too but he's always too busy wit his own stuffs to meet me....i'm almost tired of askin him to meet me cos everytime i ask him, he'd say tat he can't make it...it came to a point tat i stopped askin him when are we gonna meet...till he kicked up a fuss bout it...sayin tat i no longer care if we meet anot...crappy rite...its like he's always bz...so i tot it'd be easier if he was to plan our outings...since i'm free on most days...arghh...!!! enuff of tat...its gonna make my monday more bluer....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:58 a.m.
Friday, June 27, 2003
hey guys...i'm takin half-day today...juz waiting for my parents to come & pick me up...woohhoooo....soooo bloody glad...to get outta the ofc....feelin a bit blue today...guess it muz be the p.m.s. thingy...but wat the hell...i'm tryin to ignore it...feelin kinda hungry at the moment...but gotta wait for my parents to come & pick me up..we're goin for lunch...my 2 bitches are askin me to go hang out later today...but i got religious class tonite...mayb can meet them if i'm done accompanying my parents fast...hmm..i've been doin sum thinkin for the past few days...maybe i'm gonna go ahead wit is crazy idea...it sounds like fun...hehehehe...gotta go for now...haf a great weekend....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 12:32 p.m.
Thursday, June 26, 2003
hey there..i'm slackin rite now coz there's nothin much to do..i've finished most of the thins tat i haf to do areadi..except for tat stupid er-model..i juz refuse to do it..waste my time..got other better things to do..i'm takin half day morrow..hehehe..need to accompany my mom..ten i'm gonna buy material for my mom to sew for the coming hari raya..i've only decided on one..havent decided on the other color..i'm gonna buy white lace to make in a "baju kurung", ten use my mom's superb black "songket" to the bottom..i think its gonna be nice..theme color for this yr would be white..coz my family wants to wear white for the first day..ten is plans to wear black wit white lining for tis hari raya..coz he says tat its gonna contrast wit my color..i wonder if tis time ard i can escape goin out wit his bike frenz..manage to do so last hari raya coz we sorta had a silent break up..i dok tink i'll be comfortable goin out wit them..ten summore, i'm all dressed up ten haf to ride on his bike..hmm..not a nice sight to me..i dok reali his frenz..ten the gerls are another issue..arghh..well, wat to do, tis is wat i haf to go thru coz i fall in love wit a "mat motor"..we'll juz see how thins go..i can't actually design wat i want for the other material..tats y i can't decide on wat to buy i tink..shit..but nvm, perhaps the idea will juz go thru once i find the PERFECT material..hehehe..is has been havin tis crazy idea for the past few days..he's askin me bout it..dok tink i'm up to it..arghh..his idea is partly scaring me coz he makes it sound like its gonna be possible..but at the same time, i knoe its gonna be great..hahahaha..but, well..i dok knoe..i'm juz not up to it..got to tok to him yesterday..was great..i missed him..was supposed to meet him..but i can't make it..was BUSY wit werk..damn rite..and tis is juz an attachment..i'm not even werkin here permenantly..back to is..we tok bout loads of stuffs..i told him tat i dok wanna get married anytime soon..mayb we can get engaged in a few yrs to come..or perhaps dok need to get engaged..juz save enuff money & get married straight away..i stil want my TIFFANY & CO. ring though..hahaha..haf to settle for juz a bracelet for now..i'm happy enuff..bryan, my old sec sch mate called yesterday..said tat he misses me..and he juz can't find another gerl who's prettier ten me..said tat i'm the prettiest..bullshit..hahaha..i told him not to bullshit..he's a great pal..mayb i'm meetin up wit him one of these days..sure gonna haf loads of fun..i can't wait..hehehe..
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:58 a.m.
Wednesday, June 25, 2003
in the ofc again...wats new bout tat...feelin sleepy like hell...slept late yesterday...followed my parents go my uncle's hse at pasir ris...met my fav cuz...boy...she's diff now...can't describe how...but was kinda disappointed to see the change...its been a long time since i met her...guess it muz be due to the ppl she's mixin wit...sucky rite...hmm...guess wat...my er-model was rejected...he said tat it was a traditional er-model..he wanted an object-oriented one...wat the fuck..told u areadi its gonna be scrutinised....wat the fuck...perhaps i shud juz get him to do it himself...coz i haf other thins to do instead of trying to make tat stupid thin a perfect one...like i'm not busy enuff...dude...!!! get a life...!!! suzi juz msg me sayin tat she's up...i can come if i want to...she muz haf been tryin to msg sida...gosh...wish i cud go and join them man...sida muz be goin to suzi's hse...damn...i miss hangin out wit them...juz sittin down...laughin our heads of bitchin...and tokin bout everythin under the sun...i want those days back...these freakin ipp thingy is reali puttin a stop to my social life....wawan's bday party is on tis sat...dress code is tat u haf to haf colorful hair...where the hell am i gonna find a wig...shit man...nvm...juz ignore the dress code...wat can he do anyways...is told me tat he's not goin...damn...wish he cud come...coz i'm gonna see yus & endy there....its gonna suck like hell...esp seein yus's fucked up face..he's surely gonna giv me a face...to hell wit him..grow up for goodness sake...ur freakin 26 yrs old & u can't accept a rejection...sickenin...juz coz u like me, doesn't mean tat i haf to accept u...arghhh!!! but i'm gonna haf fun none-the-less....who cares bout him....he can go to hell for all i care...if is was to come alg...i can be a real bitch & make him regret ever knoein me...hahahaha...i'm stil missin is...noticed some visible changes in him after tat huge fight tat we had...he's been givin me more attention...no matter how busy he is...normly, when he's busy, he'd juz ignore me...but now he's constantly callin & sms-ing me...perhaps its a gd change...mayb gonna meet him tis weekend...but i haf to go to wawan's bday party...hmm...how to choose ar....nvm, when the time comes ten i'll decide....
^commfreak^ spit on u at 09:11 a.m.
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
i'm in the ofc...AGAIN...gosh it sux...i want my carefree, slackin life back....i miss it...juz plain slackin...werk's a bore esp when u haf a dateline to meet but unable to do so due to some missing documents...and ten ur boss is pesterin u to do it asap...hell its not my fault dude...wake up ur bloody idea...had to do an ER-MODEL yesterday for a system tat i haf to design...gosh its been ages since i heard tat word...call up my 2 bitches...and they were goin like..."WAT THE FUCK IS TAT...???!!!!" hahaha...i dok blame them...i myself only haf a brief rememberance of wat the hell was tat thin...u guys shud haf seen the horrid look on my face when my boss told me to do tat er-model thingy...i was speechless...but, hey i managed to do it thanx to the help of another pal called idah...she's good dude...mangaged to draw it up while tokin to her on the phone...ten i manage to go thru a worri-less sleep...in the morn, i areadi took out tat piece of paper to bring to werk...i sat down haf coffee....went out..ten once i board the bus, i realised tat i FORGOT TO BRING IT TO WERK!!!! hahaha...dumb sia...luckily i stil member how was the drawin like...reach the ofc ten drew it again...supposed to show it to my supervisor later...damn i'm gonna hate it coz he's a perfectionist...cfm my werk is gonna be scrutinised...fuck la...not happy wit my werk, u can jolly well go and do it himself...i dok giv a damn...i suck at programmin...
my boyfren juz sms-ed me...ask me to go help him call LTA coz need to go for inspection due to illegal modification...i tink he tinks tat i'm his secretary...always ask me to go do tis kinda stuffs...so, i called the person..spoke to him...made a re-appt...and the person told me to tell him not to ride his bike till he passes the inspection...hmm...i wonder if he's gonna do tat...hehehe...perhaps tat would teach him a lesson not to waste his money to modify his bike unneccesarily...or so i tink...nah...dok tink he'll learn his lesson...hehehe...he sure owes me sumthin....and i'm havin an evil grin on my face rite now...hehehehehe...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 11:28 a.m.
Monday, June 23, 2003
hey guys...its a mon morn...i'm the ofc...feelin a bit sleepy as per norm...weekend was ok...sida & family came to my hse yesterday...sent her clothings for my mom to sew for the coming hari raya...was fun...considerin the fact tat its been a long time since i last saw her or met up wit my frenz...had tonnes of laughs..esp bout the tit-to-tit thingy...hehehe...was kinda emotional wit is yesterday..he was bz doin up his bike to prepare for the coming inspection...he spent the whole day wit his bike...finally called me at 12 sumthin..said tat he juz reach home...was about to start another fight wit him...but ten couldn't haf the heart to do so coz he sound reali tired & for the last week, we had enuff fights to last me for a few months...hehehe...so, we juz had our daily 5 min phonecall...tat i haf to be satisfied wit..said tat he's tired of doin his bike...mayb shud do me for a change...hahahhaha...like tat wud happen...ten i was aso sleepy since i was pretty bz the whole day...didnt tok much...i juz melted when he said "nite sayang" sumthin tat i haven't heard 4 sum time...since i'd be asleep by the time he got hm..said the norm i luv u & gave each other gd nite kiss...hehhee...i was smilin in my sleep...actuali it doesn't take much to make me happy...i'm content wit wateva he has to offer...coz i dok xpect much from him...i always tell myself to take a step a day...never bite more ten i can chew...hehehe...ten juz now he juz sms me...sayin tat i'm rite on top of his sweet list..hehe...& aso a pic msg saying sumthin like iskandar & faizah eternity...gosh...its a gd start i guess...hehehe...dok mind my mushiness...its not always tat these thins happen..coz he's not a romantic all the time...hehehehe...hell...i'm intoxicated by love i guess...ciao ppl...sori if its too mushy for u...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 10:39 a.m.
Saturday, June 21, 2003
need i say much...i'm the B.I.T.C.H....hahaha
Im a bitch.
^commfreak^ spit on u at 01:16 p.m.
Saturday, June 21, 2003
somethin happened in the ofc & i'm really spooked & FREAKED OUT!!!! emm...well, it goes like tis..i was sittin alone in the ofc doin my werk..ten sudeenly tis singh guy came in lookin for my boss..told him tt my boss is not in..ten he suddenly said tt he's happy to see my face..gave me his name card..he's some sort like an astrologer..tells ppl their luck & stuff...so, he told me tt my lucky mth wub be on august..wonder wat wub happen..hmm...okie back to the spooky part...he ten said tt he can tell me bout my life..said sumthin like there's 2 guys who like me but i only want 1 of them..which is like sorta true...ten ask me to give him a piece of paper...asked me to write my full name..ten after tt, he scribble some thins on a piece of paper...crushed it ten put it on my palm..ten he started askin me how many siblings i haf, my boyfren's name & wat i want in life...ten after tt , he asked me to open tt crushed paper on palm & guess wat....its exactly the same as to wat he asked me...HOW THE HELL DOES HE KNOE HOW MANY SIBLINGS I HAF, MY BOYFREN'S NAME & WAT I WANT IN LIFE....!!!!! gosh..i'm sooooo freaked out...kinda scared at the same time..ten he asked for some money..told him tt i don't haf any..hehehe..y shud i giv..i'm broke ppl...i need all the money tt i haf..hahaha...after he left, i locked the door..hell...i'm alone in the ofc...shit man...tis incident is reali freakin me out...wonder where the hell is my boss...i wish he's ard..at least i won't be sooo scared...wat a day man...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 12:12 p.m.
Friday, June 20, 2003
hey ppl...finally tis pg is up..1stly gotta giv a huge thanx to babelicious suzi 4 designin tis page..credit goes to u dudette..i'm at werk rite bout now..sleepy..even the caffeine boost is not helpin..i miss my frenz..suzi, sida..we'll catch up soon aite..dammit..my boss juz told me i had to update his system using asp..sucky rite..shud i scream out to him tat I SUCK AT PROGRAMMING!!!! its the weekend...boy i'm glad though gotta werk morrow..hope tat the nxt week is gonna be great for me...dok want anymore fights wit is...the past few days haf been hell..thank GOD thins are ok areadi...its sux when we fight coz he'd ignore me..can't cope wit tat...i luv u is...imagine fighting on the eve of ur anniversary...sux right...he's like my sugar rush..can never get enuff of him...hehehe...
^commfreak^ spit on u at 09:24 a.m.
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